Yep another new year post. Probably a bitter one too, I just feel it coming.
I was able to keep two of my three resolutions this year. The first and most important was to never have another year like 2010, and never have to deal with The Succubus again. On that front, mission success. But really I do not think my life could ever be that bad again. The second was to finally start, and finish P90X, which I did, but sadly got too lazy to keep it up. The third.... and most repeated was yet again a fail. For the last 5 years I have wanted to have a family by the end of the year. Find a nice, sane woman and start to settle down, jump into the next chapter of my life. But thanks to God's great sense of humor, here I am, spending New Years alone with a cat, preparing for bed for my shitty job at 0500. Have been single for the last almost 3 years and have had only a handful of dates is how God gets his jollies, but that's cool. Maybe that was a tad harsh.... but that just leads into a whole other bag that is probably best not opened right now. So what is in store this year? No "new year new me" BS that you always hear. I know exactly who I am, and I like it. Sure, some things will change, they always do, but I do not need a new me. And my hopes of finding a good girl fade more and more every year, and the deployment this year does not help. But because I am a fool, and for some reason hold on to God's cruelty, for the 6th year in a row my first is to find a wife. The second? To eventually move past being pissed at God.... either by just letting him have his fun and accept it, hoping for the best, or pray that he brings something great my way. And lastly, probably the most easy resolution, to have my career path laid out in black and white and moving on it. Sadly the Succubus still has a hold on me there. The bitch ruined my career and I am still struggling in that department. Maybe I should just start with that one, it has the most hopes of coming true.
2012 was not terrible, but it was not where I wanted it to be. I made big changes in my life, my point of views, and created a new path in my future by moving to Alabama. But I had hoped it would finally bring me back to my high points in life, that is, everything before 2010. I guess the year could have been worse though. I do have a job, a home, and finally closer to family. On most fronts I am content and happy.
I guess a lot of my resolutions come down to attitude. Laying out my career path and getting it done and the whole "God, stop poking me with a stick" thing can change with a change of heart probably. Being a religious man I know that if I did that then my life probably would be as great as it was 3 years ago and before.
In 2013 I will see my second deployment for the USAF. I think it will do me a ton of good. Time to think, a lot of alone time, and a good amount of time with less distractions in life.
2013 will bring new things for me in my music. I want to learn to write better songs than the crap I have written in the past. Maybe some writing lessons.
2013 will bring me closer to my family, just like 2012 did compared to 2011.
2013 will bring closer friendships.
Most importantly, 2013 will bring the Meat Hammer face to face with the world yet again, and as before, I will simply rip off its balls and come out on top.
To all of you bringing in 2013 the right way, please, bottoms up and have a drink for me. Enjoy being next to your friends, live it up, and remember, the year will be what you make it.
Get out of here you old itchy 2012, welcome 2013.
Together We'll Ring In The New Year
The Meat Hammer
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