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Welcome to my no nonsense blog. It is uncensored, un-rated, pull out the big guns, and probably offensive to some, and will more than likely piss people off more than once. That is the warning, but that is not the purpose. I am not here to hurt or offend anyone, and for all stories, names WILL be changed for safety reasons, and if you still know its about you, then take it for what it is, and that is nothing more than a form of release for what is on my mind. Enjoy,

The Meat Hammer

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Rescue success, Utah life

So, I sit here with nothing to do at 0337 waiting to go to work by 0600. Why am I still up you may wonder, well let me begin my tale of the rescue.
Things were almost perfect last weekend. My best friends got to Vegas in the morning and we took advantage of the day by hitting the strip and making the best of the time we had. That Friday night we had the whole apartment loaded in the UHAUL and ready to go. Saturday was an easy day, ending with watching Auburn play Clemson at BJ's. The drive home on Sunday was nice, a good 6+ hours talking with C Bear. By Tuesday I was 95% unpacked and settled in. So far the job is great, part time hours as it was 4 years ago, instead of the 17-20 a week im able to rack in about 35. Good times, will help to pay off the car and get things rolling. In other news, I am finally enrolled in school, Broadview University for criminal justice. Time to rack in that post 9/11 GI Bill and Yellow Ribbon money. I have been enjoying being back home, seeing old friends, making new ones and loving life. Tonight, probably the best night since being home. We met up at Iggys for the Auburn game, very enjoyable, and a great win, then came home and starting the drinking fest with Million, Anarchy, Homewrecker and the Big Guy. After multiple drinks we headed down to the man cave for some Band Hero, nothing like a drunk rock fest on the XBOX. We decided it was time for bed around 0230, and I had to be up for work at 0445. Pointless to go to bed so here I am awake and waiting to go to work for 4 hours.
Moving on to some more important stuff....
With as great as life is getting to be here, the past still lingers. Thankfully I am level headed enough to not make drunk phone calls anymore, or Succubus might have gotten a wake up call this morning. There were so many things left unsaid and I know I will never get those answers, and to an extent it really bothers me. At other times, I feel she can just go fuck herself for all I care, and one day, as LP so fantastically put it, she will swim through the smoke of bridges she has burned, and nobody will apologize because she has lost what she didn't deserve. I wonder now how long it will take for me to get from 90% over her to 100%. So now the bigger problems and decisions come into focus. I need to continue to plan out my 3rd time is a charm idea. I am left with 2 options, get a better car, start to get on my feet and move to Washington, or stick it out in Utah for a little over a year- 1 1/2 and get my degree, get well off on my feet them, move to Washington. Whatever the Reserves say to me this weekend will be a major player in that.
All that said I am more happy than I have been in the last 8 months, I am with family and friends, plenty of support around me, plenty of love, and plenty of fun, compared to giving up my life for someone who could give 2 shits. I am well on my way, and other than being too tired to go to work in 25 minutes I haven't a grip in the world. Stay tuned for next time, when I explain a few things about who and why I am the way I am. FTW and WAR DAMN EAGLE!

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