Ah man what a week it has been and it is only going up from here, in both good and hard ways. As a short catch up, Thanksgiving day was great. We had a great dinner with a big family and I loved it. After dinner we went sledding. Well kind of, it was more of us sitting on a sled and Burger pulling us to our death and hanging on for dear life. Things have happened this week and opportunities have been presented to me and my life is changing fast here. Where do I start? Don't answer me, this is my blog I will decided, now sit down and enjoy... or go color, whatever.
When I lived in Alabama, I was part of a youth group that was awesome for me. I was in that point of my life where I had a good relationship with the big guy upstairs. Then I moved to Utah, and yea thats when I tasted booze for the first real time, I still had a great relationship because of my church and church family. Then I moved to Canada, or Kennada if you will, and that went down hill. I just didn't have that group of friends, not that there was anything wrong with my friends there. Some of the best a guy could have, but it was a different group. It showed in my life too. Then I moved to Vegas, and I tried to get back on track and it just didn't work, no matter how many times I hit my knees. And now I have come full circle and I am back in Utah, and have a new church family, I play in the worship band at church, I am part of the camp again this year, and even my mouth has improved, a lot. This situation plays a huge role in my upcoming life choices, and I will get back to that. This past Monday at home church we spoke about faith, and it was cool because friends of mine there are in the same situation job wise as I am about a big career move, and we spoke about having faith that God has given us this chance. And how whatever job choice you make, if you bring God with you, he will take care and provide for you. I try to keep that in mind in making my choice.
I wanted to go to Washington and continue with my job that I have now in the military. Man I love my job, scope dope, monkey work, whatever you want to say about it, I love it. But I might be giving all of that up for opportunities that might exist in the far future. Talk about having faith right? I am now choosing to toss away the Washington spot and transferring into the Guard here in Utah and cross training into paralegal. Something I know nothing about and don't have a very high interest in, but could really help me in the future with my Criminal justice degree. I also would only drive to Salt Lake instead of getting to California every month which is a pain in the rear end. I also would not leave my support system I have here in Utah, the family and friends I have, the great church and church family and the chances to grow better as a person. I have to make this choice soon, and I am trying to have faith that it is the right choice and God will be there with me.
Other things are happening for me here too. I have been giving guitar lessons to a 15 year old girl, and after only 5 maybe 6 sessions she can play songs and I love it. It is something I really look forward too. I am also still getting attention at work,. The managers are noticing my selling skills, and hopefully soon a full time slot will open for me to grab. I am still fighting for hours but it is a winning battle for me. Football has been in my favor this year as well. A great Iron Bowl win last week just made my Black Friday even better. I watched the game with a hardcore Bama fan like I am an Auburn fan, and we both had our happy and angry times. It was a blast. Now for 1 more game before taking that well deserved crystal ball away from Bama. I am hoping to maybe go to that game in Glendale, but it really relies on my GI Bill money coming in before then. So God, if you really love me, make it happen! Lastly I am getting myself back out there. I have a date this weekend that I am nervous but excited about. No details for anybody right now, even though there are no secrets on here I will wait for the right time. I have not been on an actual date in 4 years. Last real date was with bat shit crazy Natalie, and that wasn't even a real date so probably not since I lived in Utah last time have I had a real date. Scary times. I hope that I am ready to move on with that part of my life. I think I am but time will tell.
So this week is a busy important week for me, and I am not hoping for the best, because I know I deserve the best and thats what I will get.
"Life could you be a little softer to me? Life can you be more gentle to me? Yea I know, this is a selfish plea because Christ sacrificed his flesh on the cross for me, but this world is hard, its cruel and I wish it would be, softer, softer, softer to me"
The Meat Hammer
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