Here is my man card revisited 18+ Language

So this is nothing more than a follow up to my loss of a man card post. After that blog I have spoken to a few close folks about it and a few good points were brought up. So I figured I would add that now. This is probably one of the hardest posts I have done simply because nobody enjoys evaluating themselves, it’s a harsh reality.

As I mentioned, yes I think I am allowed to be super picky now, but maybe I was a bit to harsh. Two things that will stay the same are my football and my nerdism. “Meat Hammer, nerdism is not a word” Well, it came out of my mouth didn’t it? Anyways, some others things can be flexible though I guess, and I should not pick apart small meaningless things. Obviously though, she still has to be attractive to me.

Some self reflection came out of that too. This is going to sort of replace the “requirements” of a girl for me. And if you thought I was asking too much last time, your in a for something deep. I already said the 2 things that need to stay, but I need a patient gal. I was thinking back about a couple girls I went on dates with and what might have happened and what not (not playing the what if game here) and I realized that the issue might just be me. Now lets get something straight, I am a man therefore I am never in the wrong, but we already knew that. But I think I have made myself forget what its like to be in a relationship. After my last with Succubus I have created the frame of mind that women are the same and I am too good for them, and that they should drop everything and only pay attention to me. And that I should be able to do what ever I want and only have her around when I want her to be, that way I don’t have to deal with her woman bullshit. But I never used to see it that way.  I realize that if I keep this frame of mind then I am exactly like the Succubus, but I know I am so much better than that bitch will ever be. So now that I said that, the woman I get with needs to be patient, give me a month or two to get back into the feel of a relationship. I know that’s a lot to ask, but if she is worth a damn then she would do it. I mean, how often do us guys put up with a woman’s baggage and bullshit? They can do it too. I need a woman who will remind me that there is such thing as a good woman.

I also know that the next girl will not be my ex, thank God, but I also realize I am, and probably always will be bitter about it, and really who can blame me? I need someone who will take that bitterness away. So maybe I have found small dumb reasons to push the 3 or so girls away because I do not want to put them through my baggage. I know it is a lot to ask because I have tried to date girls with baggage in the past, but sadly they were dumb and did not realize they had any.

Along with maybe forgetting what a real relationship is like, I lost the intimate part of it too. I know my mom reads this, and so this next part is both hilarious and awkward. I had gone a on a few dates with a girl and things starting moving towards a more intimate side of things and I ran from it. I did not want to have that type of attachment. This was one of two reasons, either I did not want to get hurt again, OR I subconsciously knew what I mentioned above and did not want to put her through any of that. Maybe both. I would have much rather had a booty call or a one night stand instead of get intimate with someone that I knew.

Enough with the explaining lets hit the facts. I want a girl that accepts my football and nerdism, patient and will help me get used to being in a relationship again, she can not give up easily on me because lets face it, I’m pretty damn amazing, and all of the other smaller things will simply fall into place after that. I can think of a couple women in my life right now that could probably fit that bill.  

So take that man card from the last blog rip it, burn it, whatever you want, and then look back at it and realize that I just mind fucked you because I actually took one of  YOUR man cards and gave it back to you… lol suckers.

The Meat Hammer